-the 98th day-

Hai. Been through a bad day :c
I never thought that changing someone's DP (for fun, anyway) could lead into this -kinda- massive disaster. ERGH.
Ya I used to do this "bajak" thingy sih, so I never thought that she'll cry T_T
I never meant to make her cry... Nor to settle things down with her...
(Remember my post about the committee thing? It's the same person anyway)


And then come this person who asked about her.
So I told him.. From this thing until what happened inside my house.
About my mom. About my life. GEEZ!!
Never imagined that I'll tell this to this person .______.
Yaa I rarely do this 'curhat' to boys who aren't that close to me sih....
DX geeez I guess my image's shattered now...
Ah. T_T
Sorry for this unimportant post anyway... Have nowhere to write x(

-the 97th day-

Hell-oh! :D

Having some random thoughts lately...

I wrote around 90++ things about boys..

And here's some :

A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

LOL. Just random-ing around, kay?

Anyway... These thingy annoyed me enough...

-_- Y u have no other time to reach my ears?

Last time, I heard bad news just before the physics exam (but luckily I passed)

Now, I heard a news (I don't know whether this is good or bad) just before this chemistry exam..... NOEEEEES!!!

Really something ya (sesuatu banget #fail)

Okay, gotta get goin' because I haven't started studying yet...

See ya!

-mezzanines;random-

My friend taught me how to make an origami heart..

So I decided to spent my freetime by making some :D

Isn't it lovely? :p

And when I see this photo,, I don't know why my parents "showed up" inside my mind.

Then I cried. Tears that come from scars left by my parents years ago...

So I decided to make a post dedicated to my past...

Anyway. There's something about the color of these hearts..

Like the middle one, I pick green with red-flowery inside.

Sometimes I'm too focused to my goals (which is about money; represented by green)

But I also could fall in love, like what I feel now...

And like the right one, black with orange inside..

Black? Dark? EVIL? Sometimes people describes me as a cruel stone-hearted disbeliever..

But still, I have that small-insignificant cheerful part of me who wants to be God's good girl ;)

For the left one, I made it when I feel damn random (that's why this post's title is random)

So, please enjoy and keep reading! ;)

-the 96th day-

Hi all :D Just got back from this 3 days retreat :D
Well.. If I'm not mistaken, I've been complaining about this retreat from several weeks-or months ago...

But this doesn't turn out to be like what I've expected.

It wasn't as good (neither as bad) as I thought.

The sessions were great (not really that stuffed by bible - based on faith thingy) and applicable. But too bad... Some of those aren't really that exciting T_T

Based from what I've heard from neighboring group (we're all divided into 4 huge groups) that their sessions were fun and exciting. Lots of games...

And about the dedication service (yes, that cry-all-night session), I find it didn't make me touched at all... Kinda fail, I guess..

BUT! I love the 3rd day! We spent all day playing outside~
We won the 2nd place among 28 teams! *cheers*

And about the accommodation...  Better if we not talk about that ._.

It's the place that p4 (3 years ago) use to do "Character Building"

-_- With the orphanage style bunk bed (occupied by me + extra bedbugs xD )

It's not really a place you want to stay sih ._. 

Yahhh, anyway. When I reach home my parents show this package- addressed to me.

I don't know who sent this, but still, thanks a lot :D

And since I got home.. I felt somehow strange.

I can't get angry to my parents :o (fyi, I usually get angry to my parents about small things)

Maybe this retreat has changed me a little bit :D

-the 95th day-

Heyyaa.. :(
Life's quite rough lately...
Just faced a week full (okay it's more than a week) of tests, and it's driving me crazy!
T_T


Like these tests and tasks aren't stressing enough...
Yesterday's just daaaaamn awful.
1. It's the night before FR's work and energy test (yes, FR's test always be my worst nightmare)
2. Mood messed up by a problem. A small problem that grows into a enormous one -_-
3. Failed today's physics test. damnit! Either we need more time or whatever. And the thing is I didn't have any single chance to cheat :( *eh??* poor me.


Yaaaaaah. But still, despite of those bad things, lots of great things happened too :D
Like this one :

My new Red 500GB external HD :D

Always been wanting this since months, and my parents bought it 'miraculously' for me :D
They said that it's just a gift, to appreciate my effort(s) :D So confused yet so happy ^^


Yah, even now I haven't finished packing for this sort-of-wasting-time-thingy : retreat.
So I guess I better get going! :D See you guys later!

-the 94th day-

Hi all :D Long time no see, huh?
Sorry... Lately we're so damn busy with our annual cup...
Nope, not that. I'm just super tired..
But at least we're having so much FUN!!!
And I'm quite sure that nobody wants this week to end ;_;
Although our last night (it's this SATURDAY!!!!) will be the best night of the year (yeahhh \m/)
Because we'll spend it with RAN, GLENN FREDLY, and PETRA SIHOMBING!!
YEAAAAAY ~ *applauds*


But today's quite great too! Watching celebrities playing basketball isn't one ordinary thing.
And the allstars are handsome too <3 like number 4, 11, and 13 :D :D
Yaaaaaah sometimes it's hard to find pleasing-to-see faces here ;_;


I'm feeling happy today, btw.
Ya, like everyone else, I love getting compliments :D
And I got lots of it today xD thanks for improving my mood guys ^^


Last 3 lines are just for fun, fyi :p

-the 93rd day-

EVENING! :D
Great day, no?
Well.... It WAS a great day..
Especially with this awesome opening of smakONE cup 2011; WONDERWORKS !!
And two great games by kr1za futsal team, SMAK 1A and SMAK 1B!
Everything turned out just damn good (y)
But I'm awfully exhausted... x(
Never reach home before 20.00 pm since monday...
Now my whole body's aching T_T


Actually I have something to talk about here.
BUT, BECAUSE I KNOW I'M FACING SOMEONE WHO THINKS THAT HE ALWAYS RIGHT ALL THE TIME....
I canceled posting my opinion. I'm just too frustated... -_______-
Well, thanks to him now I have this new motto :

" To lead is to serve"

LOL. I don't know (and don't care) whether the grammar is correct or not.
But starting today I'll be holding on that sentence... (switch)
Supaya gw bisa sabar dan tetep 'tabah' walau diperlakukan kurang senonoh #eh
What makes me stay smiling is just this stupid thinking :
'God has planned this for us, His children, and He won't give us something we can't bear. Everything He gave / will give is the best for us, and to make us grow stronger and closer to Him.'
LOL. I don't have any idea why I could say such a thing.. xD

-the 92nd day-

Hey guys. Can't believe how awful my mood is right now ;_;
Sheesh.
Just because of this 'little' unimportant matter.. -_-
Yes, I'm the only one who didn't competent enough to be this retreat committee. 
Well I have to admit that I'm not really into those thingy though.
But being the only person who doesn't get chosen... Bothers me.
Am I really that bad? I don't know lah..


AAAAAAANDDDDDD when I'm in the middle of depression...
Comes the second problem ;_;
I am indeed love to tease other.. 
And I know when I'm teasing sometimes I lost control...
I thought you won't get angry like this...
All I can do is just apologizing and not repeating this anymore..
But I have no ability to force you to forgive me though..
Yes, I realized that lately you're trying to restrain from me..
Why I didn't aware? I don't know...


I'm losing 2 friends in a day. Great.
I don't know whether I was destined to be a disturbing person or I'm getting worse and worse everyday...
Geez. Sorry for this unimportant post.. I'm having nobody to listen. T_T

-the 91st day-

Heyya all! :)
Sorry for (again) my late post...
Actually I want to post this @ friday night .___.
And now, there's too many topics that I want to tell...


Here's some which I consider quite important :


1. Our physics test, the one which need ONLY ONE MORE student to reach the minimum criteria of classical has failed to do so. It's quite normal actually, BUT what makes this one painful is because lots of student cheats their way into that un-remedial scores. Because of their immorality and egoism, we (ones who didn't cheat and failed) lost our chance to do the test once more -_- thanks a lot. -__- Sincerely, I got 37/100 but I didn't cheat.


2. My parents were really disappointed with my mid-term results :(
Although I've tried my best (what?? I haven't, really) but they kept asking for more!
I wonder how could I make them smile -_______-


3. I'm getting more confused about this university thingy.
After yesterday's edufair, I added some majors and unis I wish to enroll to -___-
It's HKU, HKUST, NUS, AtmaJaya, and PrasMul (okay almost everyone says 'WTF' about this one)


4. I missed church today and I feel somewhat.... Guilty.
I don't know whether this is a good or bad sign for my 'spiritual' (eh?) progress? LOL.


5. I'm falling deeper and deeper for him.... OHNOES!!!!
Yes, I don't know if it's just me or he's starting to care ;)
Everything is beautiful when you're falling in love <3

-the 90th day-

Hey all :)
Once again, life's been great for me lately :D
Yesterday I went to church. (ihwaw whut happened?) xD
And again, as always, I cried.
I'm getting gushier -_-a azzt.
I prayed that God would help me to believe and etc.. Let's see what will happen :p


This morning, I went to church AGAIN (okay this is getting strange)
But this time, it's GKY not a catholic church (went there with my friend to attend a lecture)
Yah. Not important. After that I spent around 1 hour cello-ing.....
And today I started to play THE SWAN!! :') :')
Just FYI, this song is my favorite among all.. It always reminds me of him.. ;_;


After that... I went 'home'. But, somehow I read my friend's bbm stats (yes, same person I went to the lecture with)
So I asked my dad to turn back to CP. LOL.
There, I attended a lecture (again) brought by Bong Chandra.
Andddddd I found this program is interesting and quite promising :D
Want to know more? Just visit this Bong Chandra School of Billionaire ^^
Actually my dad considers my attendance @ this lecture as a 'miracle' by God. LOL
Well I have to admit that this is a coincidence. Who knows, tho? :p