-the 100th day-

Officially 16 by today~!!!!!
I'm just sooooo happy!
Although I have to 'celebrate' my birthday with this Final Test...
(It happens every year ;_; )
I'm still happy and grateful, despite of this unpleasant physics and civics and chemistry and english...

I'm serious, I have failed ALL. T_T
And yes, I've planned to post my 100th post on my birthday ;;)


Well, this year's waaaaaaaay better than the last ones, ofcourse :)
Being noticed by family and friends... :)
Best one : xxxxx. not gonna tell it here, but it sure does lit my mood !


Anyway, sorry,, I can't finish my 'special something' for this 100th post..
This test is killing me fosho -_-
I hope I could finish this before christmas.. Kay? :)


Thanks for visiting and reading anyways :)

-mezzanines; random post-

Hi :)
It's the last day before final exam T_T
AND. Shits do happen, huh?
If you guys know, I've been suffering from this cough and cold since friday..
And when I woke up this morning..
I went to toilet and coughed.
Guess what I saw.
hellyeah. a lump of blood -_- damnit.
This cough is worse enough, y u no get better???
Now with this bloody cough I have fat chance to be completely healed by tomorrow.
AAAAAAAAA
And I haven't studied anything!!!! T_T
Sheesh :'( I guess I'll fail tomorrow T_T

-the 99th day-

Hi all..
Just been through an awful week :(
and today's the worst day I've ever had D:
You know, last weeks were absolutely full of test..
AND. My score's like this                                 

vv

Me... Frustated :(

It's been some months since my last remedial(s)...
And now I have 3 waiting for me T_T 
(It's english, maths, and chem D:)
Yes, that explains one of lots reason why I'm extra sad today :(
Another reason is this workshop thing...
I feel like I can't give my best contribution.. Or even worst :(
It's like I'm letting everyone's expectations down today...


I'm still lucky to have these caring friends though :D
I wouldn't be here today if you (all) weren't supporting me :')
So, thanks a lot :) :) :)
And yes, I know that I've been a bad, bad friend...
But I promise I'll try my best to be more mature and better friend..
Yes, I need your help(s) xD Thanks before, though (eh??)
ENOUGH!!! See you guys later at the 100th post!

-the 98th day-

Hai. Been through a bad day :c
I never thought that changing someone's DP (for fun, anyway) could lead into this -kinda- massive disaster. ERGH.
Ya I used to do this "bajak" thingy sih, so I never thought that she'll cry T_T
I never meant to make her cry... Nor to settle things down with her...
(Remember my post about the committee thing? It's the same person anyway)


And then come this person who asked about her.
So I told him.. From this thing until what happened inside my house.
About my mom. About my life. GEEZ!!
Never imagined that I'll tell this to this person .______.
Yaa I rarely do this 'curhat' to boys who aren't that close to me sih....
DX geeez I guess my image's shattered now...
Ah. T_T
Sorry for this unimportant post anyway... Have nowhere to write x(

-the 97th day-

Hell-oh! :D

Having some random thoughts lately...

I wrote around 90++ things about boys..

And here's some :

A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

LOL. Just random-ing around, kay?

Anyway... These thingy annoyed me enough...

-_- Y u have no other time to reach my ears?

Last time, I heard bad news just before the physics exam (but luckily I passed)

Now, I heard a news (I don't know whether this is good or bad) just before this chemistry exam..... NOEEEEES!!!

Really something ya (sesuatu banget #fail)

Okay, gotta get goin' because I haven't started studying yet...

See ya!

-mezzanines;random-

My friend taught me how to make an origami heart..

So I decided to spent my freetime by making some :D

Isn't it lovely? :p

And when I see this photo,, I don't know why my parents "showed up" inside my mind.

Then I cried. Tears that come from scars left by my parents years ago...

So I decided to make a post dedicated to my past...

Anyway. There's something about the color of these hearts..

Like the middle one, I pick green with red-flowery inside.

Sometimes I'm too focused to my goals (which is about money; represented by green)

But I also could fall in love, like what I feel now...

And like the right one, black with orange inside..

Black? Dark? EVIL? Sometimes people describes me as a cruel stone-hearted disbeliever..

But still, I have that small-insignificant cheerful part of me who wants to be God's good girl ;)

For the left one, I made it when I feel damn random (that's why this post's title is random)

So, please enjoy and keep reading! ;)

-the 96th day-

Hi all :D Just got back from this 3 days retreat :D
Well.. If I'm not mistaken, I've been complaining about this retreat from several weeks-or months ago...

But this doesn't turn out to be like what I've expected.

It wasn't as good (neither as bad) as I thought.

The sessions were great (not really that stuffed by bible - based on faith thingy) and applicable. But too bad... Some of those aren't really that exciting T_T

Based from what I've heard from neighboring group (we're all divided into 4 huge groups) that their sessions were fun and exciting. Lots of games...

And about the dedication service (yes, that cry-all-night session), I find it didn't make me touched at all... Kinda fail, I guess..

BUT! I love the 3rd day! We spent all day playing outside~
We won the 2nd place among 28 teams! *cheers*

And about the accommodation...  Better if we not talk about that ._.

It's the place that p4 (3 years ago) use to do "Character Building"

-_- With the orphanage style bunk bed (occupied by me + extra bedbugs xD )

It's not really a place you want to stay sih ._. 

Yahhh, anyway. When I reach home my parents show this package- addressed to me.

I don't know who sent this, but still, thanks a lot :D

And since I got home.. I felt somehow strange.

I can't get angry to my parents :o (fyi, I usually get angry to my parents about small things)

Maybe this retreat has changed me a little bit :D

-the 95th day-

Heyyaa.. :(
Life's quite rough lately...
Just faced a week full (okay it's more than a week) of tests, and it's driving me crazy!
T_T


Like these tests and tasks aren't stressing enough...
Yesterday's just daaaaamn awful.
1. It's the night before FR's work and energy test (yes, FR's test always be my worst nightmare)
2. Mood messed up by a problem. A small problem that grows into a enormous one -_-
3. Failed today's physics test. damnit! Either we need more time or whatever. And the thing is I didn't have any single chance to cheat :( *eh??* poor me.


Yaaaaaah. But still, despite of those bad things, lots of great things happened too :D
Like this one :

My new Red 500GB external HD :D

Always been wanting this since months, and my parents bought it 'miraculously' for me :D
They said that it's just a gift, to appreciate my effort(s) :D So confused yet so happy ^^


Yah, even now I haven't finished packing for this sort-of-wasting-time-thingy : retreat.
So I guess I better get going! :D See you guys later!